Mental health is a daily, lifelong, struggle for me, and yesterday I lost and crazy won. I’m very sorry for being a hurtful ass. That was all about my personal baggage and dysfunction, and I’m sorry I brought that in here. I’m embarrassed, humiliated, and sad. I hope you can forgive me. I failed. I own it. I’m sorry.
A lot of times dysfunction in early childhood and youth will follow you throughout life. Being aggressive, overtly angry or engaging in constant fights is not normal behavior. And it’s the trauma and distraught left in the developing brain that’s hard to reprogram. I pity those that don’t have any capacity to be introspective. They will always have terrible interpersonal relations and find it hard to connect with people because of their personality. At least you are able to look within yourself and recognize the dysfunction. Keep at it, you’ll heal one day.
This is the comment I didn’t know I needed to hear. What do I do when I’m self-aware enough to recognize the damage but incapable of, or lack the tools to address/fix it?