I’ve learned that I have to hold something in my hand, set it up and use it, live with it for a little while, before I know if I’ll like it. Some of that is build quality and control feel, some is sound, some is ineffable.
I know this is easier for some than others, but I would try. Get used gear and resell it when you’re done. It’s really worth it. It’s the only way to really grow in this hobby.
The next best thing is to join a regional audio club. Then you get to hear other gear set up in a home setting, and while it’s not your exact space you get more of an idea about sound and component synergy than a youtube video.